A DOCTOR have to be both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.hmm.Found this today while aimlessly surfing (when I knew I should be studying instead :P) The site goes "What advanced degree should you get?" and you have to answer some questions before they formulate a result for you..Voila! Well at least the answer corellates with what I'm currentLy doing thogh I am very VERY unhappy with the turn that I've recently taken in my work since this past days..I AM BECOMING A PROCRASTINATOR!! I put off doing what can be done at an earlier time then I end up feeling overwhelmed (and stressed) THINKING of the amount of work waiting for me, make a solemn vow to get half of it finished A.S.A.P., switch on the laptop..then fzzzz! My mind is a blank. the closest example is,i havent finish reading my lecture note yet busy doing all the nonsense thing seperti balik rumah and berkaraoke bersama family.haha...ish.The worst part is that this cycle repeats itself over..and over...and over again like a vicious cycle that I can't break. ..hmph.enuff worrying!hope i didnt redo the same mistake again this year..but if that ever happened,wake me up guys..;)
Maybe it's the holiday mood, or the dry posting or maybe it's my priorities shifting, maybe I'm taking things for granted, or maybe I'm just getting lazy..I don't know...but I do hope that I'll find a way out of this SOON !
love ya all.muahs
Friday, May 30, 2008
Sunday, May 4, 2008
my salad day-part 1.
hai korang.
today not in a good mood of talking something serious.*happy mood*huu~
jadi,harini ini nak tunjuk dekat korang2..my childhood pic.
sebenarnya,tidak mudah menjadi saya.dilahirkan pada 1986.boleh dikatakan tahun itu adalah tahun teramai sedara mara saya yang lahir.jadinya,saya ini sudah semestila akan dibandingkan dengan mereka.dah lah lahir akhir sekali kan.(nov)..so macam semua orang menunggu lah kelahiran saya ni(kebajetan.huhu)
tapi lain pula jadinya bila saya lahir.huu~
arwah opah saya macam cakap kat mak dan apak saya-ape ke buruk sangat anak kau ni.macam KATAK je..what?KATAK???mak saya cakap dia selalu menanges lah sebab sedih mengenang saya yang tak berapa lawa ni.adoi..naseb2.
dah la masa lahir tu hidung saya kemain la penyeknye.huhu.macam takde darah penang langsung .huhu..
lepas tu apak saya cerita.tiap2 hari die tarik la hidung saya sambil berharap ianya akan mancung.lepas tu kan..saya ni masa dulu macam juling kot.ahaaha..sampai sekarang kot.ntah.dlan certain gambar kadang2 saya nampak juling gak.huhu
lepas tu lagi macam gelap pulak tu.tapi takpe,saya bersyukur atleast saya sihat tak cacat semua kan.huhu
tapi.kesian aaa mak apak saya..nasib adik beradik saya yang lain okay jugakla..hhuhu.tapi mak saya penah cakap,macamana pun orang pandang saya buruk ke ape ke,saya tetap comel dimata dia time tu..awww.time kacih mak..love u!.so ini gambar saya.love ya all.
muahs
Saturday, May 3, 2008
**death**
hello guys.
sorry for my very long silent~been busy.wuwu.
well talking about death...When I was 15, I read a quote from anonymous: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 8 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
Talking about death,something i want to share with korang.my mak suddenly complaint to me that she had this kind of discharge from her nipple.and the day after few checkup,the doctor postulated that she might be diagnosed to have breast cancer and the best part was,the doctor have asked mak to go home and get her affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. (how could he scare mak macam gitu kan!)i mean like the mammogram semua havent been done yet but shes trying to scare her with those scary dying imagination.
Yeah i admit being a human being..we are now dying rite?ish.u know what?after that mak seem to stay quitely in her doorlocked room and plan so as everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible.she said she dont want to say your goodbyes bcoz lots have to be done with a short period of time.she lived with that diagnosis all days.she keep thinking bout that til i feel the real depression i tell u.everybody ,apak called crying mak significant changes.few days after,accident pulak ..duh,dun know how to imagine that particular time i tell ! Later we insisted mak to see the specialist, and she agreed to see the doctor the following day.after much consideration and test.she finally diagnosed to have hormonal problem since the discharge came bilaterally.
huhh~what a relief!
see,how the misdiagnosed can really change the patient and the entire family itself.This was the closest experience of mak but i feel it was my experience for facing death myself! and I hope my closest I get my own one is a few more decades la btw.
Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away.
Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary!bare that in mind.
love ya all~
nite nite
sorry for my very long silent~been busy.wuwu.
well talking about death...When I was 15, I read a quote from anonymous: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 8 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
Talking about death,something i want to share with korang.my mak suddenly complaint to me that she had this kind of discharge from her nipple.and the day after few checkup,the doctor postulated that she might be diagnosed to have breast cancer and the best part was,the doctor have asked mak to go home and get her affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. (how could he scare mak macam gitu kan!)i mean like the mammogram semua havent been done yet but shes trying to scare her with those scary dying imagination.
Yeah i admit being a human being..we are now dying rite?ish.u know what?after that mak seem to stay quitely in her doorlocked room and plan so as everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible.she said she dont want to say your goodbyes bcoz lots have to be done with a short period of time.she lived with that diagnosis all days.she keep thinking bout that til i feel the real depression i tell u.everybody ,apak called crying mak significant changes.few days after,accident pulak ..duh,dun know how to imagine that particular time i tell ! Later we insisted mak to see the specialist, and she agreed to see the doctor the following day.after much consideration and test.she finally diagnosed to have hormonal problem since the discharge came bilaterally.
huhh~what a relief!
see,how the misdiagnosed can really change the patient and the entire family itself.This was the closest experience of mak but i feel it was my experience for facing death myself! and I hope my closest I get my own one is a few more decades la btw.
Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away.
Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary!bare that in mind.
love ya all~
nite nite
how to simply marry the wrong one;p
here some huge mistake for some -correct me if im wrong okaih:)
1. Expect the other person to change after you're married.Never marry potential. If you can't be happy with the person the way he or she is now, don't get married. When it comes to the other person's spirituality, character, personal hygiene, communication skills and habits, make sure you can live with these as they are now.
2. Focus on chemistry rather than character.Chemistry ignites the fire, but good character keeps it burning. Beware of the "I'm in love" syndrome. Even when the attraction is there, have you carefully checked out this person's character?Here are four character traits to definitely check for: Humility: Does this person believe that doing the right thing is more important than personal comfort? Do I want to be more like this person? Would I like my child to turn out like him or her?Kindness: Does this person enjoy giving pleasure to other people? How does s/he treat people s/he doesn't have to be nice to? Does s/he do volunteer work? Give charity? Responsibility: Can I depend on this person to do what s/he says s/he's going to do?Happiness: Does this person like himself? Does s/he enjoy life? Is s/he emotionally stable? Ask yourself: Do I want to be more like this person? Do I want to have a child with this person? Would I like my child to turn out like him or her?
3. Pick someone who does not share your life goals.There are three basic ways we connect with another person: chemistry and compatibility, share common interests and share common life goal. Make sure you share the deeper level of connection that sharing life goals provides.After marriage, the two of you will either grow together or grow apart. To avoid growing apart, you must figure out what you're living for - while you're single - and then find someone who has come to the same conclusion as you. This is the true definition of a soul mate. A soul mate is a goal mate - two people who ultimately share the same understanding of life's purpose and therefore share the same priorities, values and goals.
4. Pay no attention to that deeper emotional connection.Do I respect and admire this person? It is not the same as being impressed by the person. We are impressed by a Mercedes; we do not respect someone because they own one. You should look for qualities such as creativity, loyalty and determination.
5. Choose someone with whom you do not feel emotionally safe.Ask yourself the following questions: Do I feel calm, peaceful and relaxed with this person? Can I fully express myself with this person? Does this person make me feel good about myself?Do you have a really close friend who does make you feel this way? Make sure the person you marry makes you feel the same way!Are you afraid of this person in any way? You should not feel you need to monitor what you say because you are afraid of how the other person will view it. If you're afraid to express your feelings and opinions openly, there's a problem with the relationship. Another aspect of feeling safe is that you do not feel the other person is trying to control you. Controlling behaviors are a sign of an abusive person. There's a big difference between controlling and making suggestions. A suggestion is made for your benefit; a control statement is made for the other person's benefit.
6. Do not put everything on the table.Anything that bothers you about the relationship must be brought up for discussion. Bringing up the uncomfortable stuff is the only way to evaluate how well the two of you communicate, negotiate, and work together. Over the course of a lifetime, difficulties will inevitably arise. You need to know now, before making a commitment, whether you resolve your differences and find compromises that work for both of you.Never be afraid to let the person know what bothers you. This is also a way for you to test how vulnerable you can be with this person. If you can't be vulnerable, then you can't be intimate. The two go hand in hand.
7. Use the marriage to escape from personal problems and unhappiness.If you are unhappy and single, you'll probably be unhappy and married, too. Marriage does not fix personal, psychological and emotional problems. If anything, marriage will exacerbate them. If you are not happy with yourself and your life, take responsibility to fix it now while you are single. You'll feel better, and your future spouse will thank you.
8. Pick someone who is involved in a triangle.A person who is involved in a triangle is who is emotionally dependent on someone or something else while trying to develop another relationship. A classic example is someone who hasn't separated from his or her parents.
People can also be triangulated with things as well, such as work, drugs, Internet, hobbies, sports or money. Be careful that you and your partner are free of triangles. The person caught in the triangle cannot be fully emotionally available to you. You will not be their number one priority. And that's no basis for a marriage.
uhuu~are u one of them?
fikir2 kan;p
1. Expect the other person to change after you're married.Never marry potential. If you can't be happy with the person the way he or she is now, don't get married. When it comes to the other person's spirituality, character, personal hygiene, communication skills and habits, make sure you can live with these as they are now.
2. Focus on chemistry rather than character.Chemistry ignites the fire, but good character keeps it burning. Beware of the "I'm in love" syndrome. Even when the attraction is there, have you carefully checked out this person's character?Here are four character traits to definitely check for: Humility: Does this person believe that doing the right thing is more important than personal comfort? Do I want to be more like this person? Would I like my child to turn out like him or her?Kindness: Does this person enjoy giving pleasure to other people? How does s/he treat people s/he doesn't have to be nice to? Does s/he do volunteer work? Give charity? Responsibility: Can I depend on this person to do what s/he says s/he's going to do?Happiness: Does this person like himself? Does s/he enjoy life? Is s/he emotionally stable? Ask yourself: Do I want to be more like this person? Do I want to have a child with this person? Would I like my child to turn out like him or her?
3. Pick someone who does not share your life goals.There are three basic ways we connect with another person: chemistry and compatibility, share common interests and share common life goal. Make sure you share the deeper level of connection that sharing life goals provides.After marriage, the two of you will either grow together or grow apart. To avoid growing apart, you must figure out what you're living for - while you're single - and then find someone who has come to the same conclusion as you. This is the true definition of a soul mate. A soul mate is a goal mate - two people who ultimately share the same understanding of life's purpose and therefore share the same priorities, values and goals.
4. Pay no attention to that deeper emotional connection.Do I respect and admire this person? It is not the same as being impressed by the person. We are impressed by a Mercedes; we do not respect someone because they own one. You should look for qualities such as creativity, loyalty and determination.
5. Choose someone with whom you do not feel emotionally safe.Ask yourself the following questions: Do I feel calm, peaceful and relaxed with this person? Can I fully express myself with this person? Does this person make me feel good about myself?Do you have a really close friend who does make you feel this way? Make sure the person you marry makes you feel the same way!Are you afraid of this person in any way? You should not feel you need to monitor what you say because you are afraid of how the other person will view it. If you're afraid to express your feelings and opinions openly, there's a problem with the relationship. Another aspect of feeling safe is that you do not feel the other person is trying to control you. Controlling behaviors are a sign of an abusive person. There's a big difference between controlling and making suggestions. A suggestion is made for your benefit; a control statement is made for the other person's benefit.
6. Do not put everything on the table.Anything that bothers you about the relationship must be brought up for discussion. Bringing up the uncomfortable stuff is the only way to evaluate how well the two of you communicate, negotiate, and work together. Over the course of a lifetime, difficulties will inevitably arise. You need to know now, before making a commitment, whether you resolve your differences and find compromises that work for both of you.Never be afraid to let the person know what bothers you. This is also a way for you to test how vulnerable you can be with this person. If you can't be vulnerable, then you can't be intimate. The two go hand in hand.
7. Use the marriage to escape from personal problems and unhappiness.If you are unhappy and single, you'll probably be unhappy and married, too. Marriage does not fix personal, psychological and emotional problems. If anything, marriage will exacerbate them. If you are not happy with yourself and your life, take responsibility to fix it now while you are single. You'll feel better, and your future spouse will thank you.
8. Pick someone who is involved in a triangle.A person who is involved in a triangle is who is emotionally dependent on someone or something else while trying to develop another relationship. A classic example is someone who hasn't separated from his or her parents.
People can also be triangulated with things as well, such as work, drugs, Internet, hobbies, sports or money. Be careful that you and your partner are free of triangles. The person caught in the triangle cannot be fully emotionally available to you. You will not be their number one priority. And that's no basis for a marriage.
uhuu~are u one of them?
fikir2 kan;p
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